Having Spent Life Seeking: The Sunday Times bestselling story of love, second chances and being seen

*Dua Lipa's Service95 Book Club Pick for June 2026*

'Trust me, you will love these characters' DUA LIPA
'Amazing, it really moved me' SHON FAYE
'If books can still change the world, this one most likely will' COLUM MCCANN

Rothko Taylor has washed up with the tide, back in their hometown, Edgecliff. Fifteen years since they left it behind.

The past is accelerating towards them: the skateboard kids on the high street that remind them of their teenage years, the splintered benches looking out to sea, where their mum Meg clutched her cans. The nice bit of town, where their dad Ezra tried and failed to build a happy home. And Dionne's block. Beautiful, extraordinary Dionne, the only person who had ever looked at them and seen what was there.

Back then, overwhelmed and full of fear, they sank beneath the surface into chaos. But they made it out alive. And this time, Rothko is determined that things will be different.

'A scorching story of love, change, homecoming and forgiveness' DAWN FRENCH

'A wonderful, moving and enlightening state-of-Britain novel' IRVINE WELSH

'A master-craftsman of deep feeling and linguistic intimacy' MAX PORTER

'Kae Tempest at his finest' ANTHONY SHAPLAND

'Unboundedly beautiful' MICHAEL PEDERSEN